Charlie Brooker has opened up about marriage and having kids, admitting before he met wife Konnie Huq he never thought he wanted to start a family.
The Black Mirror creator, satirist and broadcaster married the former Blue Peter presenter in 2010 in Las Vegas after a whirlwind romance, and the couple have two sons together, Covey and Huxley.
He has also told of Huq’s “horrific” emergency Caesarean section while giving birth to their eldest son, and his initial fears about the possibility of not bonding with his children.
Brooker, 46, told Kirsty Young on BBC Radio 4’s Desert Island Discs that he has a “romantic fluttering heart” underneath the cynical exterior for which he is known.
Of marrying Huq after just nine months together, he said: “That was absolutely the right time.
“It was weird because, for years, I’d not known if I’d wanted kids or a family, that seemed like something that other people did, I couldn’t perceive of that as a future.
“And then Konnie came along and quite early on she said ‘I want kids and a family’ and this sort of thing, and I heard myself going ‘OK’, and sort of thought, ‘oh, right, why have I said that?’
“It was the best decision I ever made.”
Brooker said it is “such a cliche” to admit that being a father has changed him, particularly because he used to write columns in which he would say he disliked children and did not want them.
He said: “I remember when Konnie was pregnant with our first son Covey, this was like in 2012 when he was born, and it was a thing I could worry about, the pregnancy.
“But my biggest fear was that I’d heard about dads who, the baby is born and they just don’t connect, or for whatever reason, they don’t emotionally connect, and I didn’t really get babies and kids.
“I was like, ‘that’s going to be me, what if I feel nothing?”‘